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Gazing out the window at a candelabra of green buds,
for some reason known only to the God of my not Understanding,
I remember Liberace and his candelabra
and his 1950’s TV show, the star flamboyant
in white tie and tails and wavy hair,
which I guess wasn’t’ real, at least
according to my grandmother’s movie magazines—
“Liberace’s Wigmaker tells All!”—which she devoured
along with pints of Sealtest ice cream
while she, herself a piano player
who used to play for the silent movies, watched
Liberace play everything from Litz to ragtime
to her favorite song—“Nola,”
which we had played at Nanny’s funeral
and which the poor organist butchered,
while the candles in the church—candles I used to light
as a Congregationalist version of an altar boy—
flickered and danced and I think
of a little old man at the nursing home
where my grandmother spent her last years
who bounced in his chair when Nanny played
“Nola” for the talent show, yelling,
“Tickle those ivories, Hatty!”
and I light the two candles
by my computer to write this all down
because candles do a really good job
setting the stage, whether
it’s for my attempt to write something,
Or for the congregation to mourn,
or for Liberace to show off
his talent and his dimples, or for spring
leaves to burst forth while a choir
of gold finches sing backup for a cardinal
whistling the first four notes of Nanny’s favorite song.

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