Pondering Pants

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He remembers the corduroys 

that whistled when he ran away 

from his mother and her hairbrush.

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Then later, dungarees, 

rolled up at the bottom, 

when he wanted to look tough,

and pegged chinos, 

black with a belt in the back, 

when he wanted to look cool.

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At his local college, 

to let people know he’d worked Out West,

he wore frayed Frisco Jeans 

with a faded circle on the left back pocket

where he stuck his tin of smokeless tobacco.

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As an English teacher, 

he wore striped bell bottoms, 

along with double-breasted sports coats, 

and paisley ties with matching pocket handkerchiefs, 

his armor against feeling incompetent.

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To become a writer, 

he decided he must have khakis

because the New Yorker ad 

said Kerouac wore them.

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He switched to cargo pants

to enhance his image 

of poet, pilgrim, seeker,

setting forth on the Camino de Santiago,

with all those pockets.

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Until, proud to proclaim

his waist size hadn’t changed

in over forty years,

he made sure his pants

had elastic waist bands

to go around an expanding gut.

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These days, however, 

he’s discovered sweatpants, 

because they’re comfortable 

and he no longer 

gives a rat’s ass what he looks like.

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Acceptance

Arizona Sunrise

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God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change…

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When it comes, the clouds clear and the sun shines and you see things the way they are—

not perfect, certainly, maybe not even great, but all in all, not bad—

and you stop trying to change things and beating yourself up when you can’t.

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The accusing voices in your head, the illusions of grandeur, the sirens’ songs of temptation

fade away and you find yourself singing an old Everly Brothers’ tune or a Christmas carol.

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The gyre grows smaller, the falcon returns to the falconer, things come together,

the center holds, and serenity envelopes the world.

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Don’t get me wrong, the clouds will return, more storms will come—

mistakes, injuries you’ll inflict (most of them upon yourself),

unrealistic expectations, failures, disappointments, defeats, deaths—

but maybe, next time, you’ll see rain, not Noah’s flood.

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