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Now is the time to sit, be still, recall
those Saturdays at the First Parish Church,
where through stained glass, sun shines on empty pews,
and dust mots dance a silent jitterbug,
while I, at twelve years old, help out my dad,
who moonlights as the sexton of our church.
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The great green doors shut out the noisy world—
my school with bells, droning voices, “Pipe Down!”
playground bullies’ intimidating threats;
my house with TV cowboys, Lawrence Welk,
and anxious voices trying to decide
what bills to pay and which to set aside—
as I collect last Sunday’s bulletins
from red pews tagged with names from long ago.
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My corduroy trousers whistle as I walk.
I add my voice, which echoes off high walls
just like Elvis singing, “Heartbreak Hotel”:
“Since my baby left me (whistle, whistle), …”
Generations of church parishioners
like those in the old photos down the hall
silently applaud, and I feel at peace—
safe from strident voices, embraced, strengthened,
supported by a Something I can’t name.
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Now is the time, when storms of every kind
assault my brittle bones with screaming winds,
that I will sit, be still, watch those dancing
rainbows, sense kindly clouds of witnesses
enfolding me as I lift soul in song
in the sanctuary of memory.
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